Pictures and 1,000 Words

My thoughts, my poetry, my photos floating on the Internet.
#black #white #latino #asian #young #old #addicted #straight #homeless or #beachhome ~ #sand, #waves, #VeniceBeach #skate #surf ~Everything~ 
The beat of a #drum, everyone #danced. The #Sun set, everyone danced. The #cops came, everyone #danced. 
#Music united #us all.

#DrumCircle | #hashTagPoem

#black #white #latino #asian #young #old #addicted #straight #homeless or #beachhome ~ #sand, #waves, #VeniceBeach #skate #surf ~Everything~
The beat of a #drum, everyone #danced. The #Sun set, everyone danced. The #cops came, everyone #danced.
#Music united #us all.

#DrumCircle | #hashTagPoem

"Had I not created my whole world, I would certainly have died in other people’s."
Anaïs Nin

"Had I not created my whole world, I would certainly have died in other people’s."
Anaïs Nin

I used to fixate on my existence when I was young, and more about not existing before I was born and an eternal ongoing of time after I am gone. As people slip through my hands, it is hard for me to accept that someone with life, flesh, blood, thoughts, love are going to merely “pass” away. The only thing I can accept is that anything that exists now will always exist in some form. Nothing really disappears, it just becomes something else. I want to know, I’ve been searching to know that our souls, or whatever it is that makes us “go” — not the mechanics because there is more than that— but that thing inside of us with answers, love and drive— will go back to the light from which it came. I still shutter when I get seconds of that feeling—it’s like touching time and for a split second being everything at once. #ineedasupportgroup

I used to fixate on my existence when I was young, and more about not existing before I was born and an eternal ongoing of time after I am gone. As people slip through my hands, it is hard for me to accept that someone with life, flesh, blood, thoughts, love are going to merely “pass” away. The only thing I can accept is that anything that exists now will always exist in some form. Nothing really disappears, it just becomes something else. I want to know, I’ve been searching to know that our souls, or whatever it is that makes us “go” — not the mechanics because there is more than that— but that thing inside of us with answers, love and drive— will go back to the light from which it came. I still shutter when I get seconds of that feeling—it’s like touching time and for a split second being everything at once. #ineedasupportgroup

When sadness is greater than faith, there’s an overwhelming darkness that swallows you whole—a momentary weakness, or a lifetime of weakness, a moment nonetheless—a decision made in the midst of hopelessness—I get it, I’ve been there too. Limp, bent, stones in chest, but the kids, Robin!—-Sadness is some type of thing that feeds itself, like a parasite inside you, feeding off of anything you ever thought was yours, because, just because—and it gets bigger and it eats until its fatty, dark, coiled body fills you and you can no longer breath. —You can no longer breathe. — 

Resuscitation is in the warm breath of your dear girl when she utters words— I love you, trying to piece  your existence back together—you were real. 

"And so it will be as if all the stars were laughing, when you look at the sky at night." — you are still here.

I once had this breed in my arms; that type of sadness is real. I once had this devil swing it’s sword in my home.

When sadness is greater than faith, there’s an overwhelming darkness that swallows you whole—a momentary weakness, or a lifetime of weakness, a moment nonetheless—a decision made in the midst of hopelessness—I get it, I’ve been there too. Limp, bent, stones in chest, but the kids, Robin!—-Sadness is some type of thing that feeds itself, like a parasite inside you, feeding off of anything you ever thought was yours, because, just because—and it gets bigger and it eats until its fatty, dark, coiled body fills you and you can no longer breath. —You can no longer breathe. —

Resuscitation is in the warm breath of your dear girl when she utters words— I love you, trying to piece your existence back together—you were real.

"And so it will be as if all the stars were laughing, when you look at the sky at night." — you are still here.

I once had this breed in my arms; that type of sadness is real. I once had this devil swing it’s sword in my home.

I don’t allow myself to feel
my own sadness,
I push it away like some old fish
to stink up some other space.
When I sleep,
the sky falls on me,
water fills everything
and fish fly
freely.

I don’t allow myself to feel
my own sadness,
I push it away like some old fish
to stink up some other space.
When I sleep,
the sky falls on me,
water fills everything
and fish fly
freely.

#1000th post. I thought it should be a reflection of #life since my Instagram is my little life #diary in photos. I couldn’t put it better than #GeorgeLucas so, I share with you this beautiful #quote in this picture.
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#1000th post. I thought it should be a reflection of #life since my Instagram is my little life #diary in photos. I couldn’t put it better than #GeorgeLucas so, I share with you this beautiful #quote in this picture.
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#Science does not deter my belief in #God. On the contrary, it broadens my wonder. God is the name I associate with the existence of a living #universe. I feel that we have given God a name and a face because that’s what we can relate to; the masses try and fit things into what we already know. The #thinkers, the ones with #imagination, the ones who question, #fearless of being condemned because there are questions that need answers—those are the people I admire. Evolution does not come from standing still. Question everything. God is greater than our minds—I AM heart and soul. “Stop acting so small. You are the #universe in ecstatic motion.” ~ #Rumi

#Science does not deter my belief in #God. On the contrary, it broadens my wonder. God is the name I associate with the existence of a living #universe. I feel that we have given God a name and a face because that’s what we can relate to; the masses try and fit things into what we already know. The #thinkers, the ones with #imagination, the ones who question, #fearless of being condemned because there are questions that need answers—those are the people I admire. Evolution does not come from standing still. Question everything. God is greater than our minds—I AM heart and soul. “Stop acting so small. You are the #universe in ecstatic motion.” ~ #Rumi

A question that resurfaces over and over in my mind is: “do you remember who you were before people told you who/how to be?” I can write pages about this, about how experiences mould who you become, but do you know your essence? I remember being a quiet observer. In this loud time, over saturated with conversations and images and opinions and studies and people, in a world of hyper-mass media that I contribute to, it’s no wonder I find solace in a quiet space, because I Am there. It’s ironic that I chose a path of communication; there was once a time I felt I didn’t have to speak.

A question that resurfaces over and over in my mind is: “do you remember who you were before people told you who/how to be?” I can write pages about this, about how experiences mould who you become, but do you know your essence? I remember being a quiet observer. In this loud time, over saturated with conversations and images and opinions and studies and people, in a world of hyper-mass media that I contribute to, it’s no wonder I find solace in a quiet space, because I Am there. It’s ironic that I chose a path of communication; there was once a time I felt I didn’t have to speak.

The state of our State: Michoacan

We waited to hear about the thundering rain,

beautiful thunderstorms against lush green mountains,

the overgrown wilderness, the emerald terrain

We waited to hear about the sound of water bombs against a tin roof

we waited to hear that she never saw the moon, just

purple-black clouds, velvety, passing through

We sat attentively, watching your mouth move

We decorated a party for you,

we welcomed you back home with flowers, pink, yellow, orange,

we prepared food.

We sat attentively watching your mouth move.

(I remember a field of fireflies.

I once ran through the field laughing,

until then I had only seen stars in the sky.

Someone said, “rub the creatures on your dress

and you too will be the light.”

The next morning I saw the creatures dead all over me

I could swim in the water, but I could never take the sea

I could taste the honey, but

I would never be the honeybee

God, what was I thinking?

Pitiful, what we so easily want to believe.)

My mother came home from the same fields

And we waited to hear about the wild sugar cane

Tell us about the sound of the rain,

about the sweet corn tamales, about

grandmother’s face.

She began:

there are people in the fields,

but they do not chase fireflies.

there is a shortage of supplies

there is a war that the people cannot fight

even though they try, 

everything they own, they must now divide

there is an infestation…

and the rain mimics the sounds of your grandmother’s cries.

what are you saying, mom?

(everything turning to stone, on the inside)

and … she replied:

grandfather is in his nineties

he can still climb the tallest fruit tree

the sugarcane is so sweet ..

an enormous sadness, like ants, crawled over me

while my mother’s eyes told us everything

we sat listening attentively

watching her lips move only.

Myrna

I feel sad when I write poetry. I feel like a mute lover. I feel like a child, like I haven’t learned enough words to express passion. Sometimes, I think those words only exist in another language. Actually, I think they might. Pablo Neruda had the gift of using common things, like birds, or body parts, or oceans and saying they stood for other things, like for words that don’t exist. I am afraid to do that; to say a cat is water and that it’s how I felt about life…#journal #writing welcome to my #morning

I feel sad when I write poetry. I feel like a mute lover. I feel like a child, like I haven’t learned enough words to express passion. Sometimes, I think those words only exist in another language. Actually, I think they might. Pablo Neruda had the gift of using common things, like birds, or body parts, or oceans and saying they stood for other things, like for words that don’t exist. I am afraid to do that; to say a cat is water and that it’s how I felt about life…#journal #writing welcome to my #morning